"My soul thirst for God, for the living God. When can I go and meet with God?" Psalm 42:2
This was my soul for the last 5 months. I was so thirsty running to different cisterns that were only half full so never satisfied my deepest longings to be with the almighty lover of my soul, my Lord. Yet, I kept running, running after the weight loss, running after the dieting, running after the self-help books, and constantly looking in the mirror seeing nothing that satisfied, physically or spiritually. I would cry out to God but only half-heartedly not surrendering my everything.
I was continuing to dry up like a prune, and my marriage was lacking, my job was lacking. Yet, I thought I was ok, I could run on my reserve and God would get me through. I loved my job therefore it wouldn't be an issue. Little did I know that what was prophesied over me in April would come true.
He would lead me into a desert, full of opposition only for me to be His bride. He would allow attacks from the enemy only to draw me into a closer and more intimate relationship with Him.
It hurt, tremendously, I have some bruises, I have some scars, and I had many tears. Yet, I made it through, but not by my power. God is so faithful, he ultimately wants everyone's heart, all of it.
So here I am, walking out of the desert, with every step taken looking towards God for guidance, not out of my strength which is nothing. I have been listening to Mark Driscoll off and on for a while, he is one of my favorite Pastors, and has a well known church out of Seattle called Mars Hill. I listened to this sermon on Friday, "Redeeming Greatness," and my eyes were opened.
Here is the acronym from the sermon. Man was I humbled and inspired to be Great according to this.
Here is the acronym from the sermon. Man was I humbled and inspired to be Great according to this.
G-Glorify God Alone
R-Reject unhealthy comparisons to others.
E-Enjoy humbly serving the outcasts.
A-Accept your life and do your best
T- Take opportunities to
redeem your ambitions.
redeem your ambitions.
Lord, may I be great in your eyes, not in the eyes of this world, I pray that you would guide me in this, I can't do this on my own. Reveal your glory through me and not my glory!
